I
got down from the bus, lost in my thoughts when I saw a familiar scene that
left me baffled and extremely jolted. I
noticed a poor child who strived hard to beg some money from the good
Samaritan just for surviving. He wore a torn and worn out shirt and his hair
was tousled. To my amazement, there were a lot of dilly bruises on his skinny
body and his eyes suffused with tears. Perhaps, he was an orphan just like me.
A train of thoughts was running upon the
past again and again. Those grievous and overwhelming memories of the past
flooded and etched my mind.
As
a 12-year-old teenager, it was not easy for me to cope with the incident that
occurred as a bolt from the blue. I was sheerly dumbfounded when I heard the
formidable news about the demise of my parents in a fatal road accident. I
could distinctly remember the feeling of heartache which shattered my heart
into thousand pieces. I must admit that I have been traumatized and devastated
by the turn of events. I was totally lost in my mind and did not know what to
do.
The
demise of my parents left me sank to the depth of depression. I buried my face in my hands and sobbed
uncontrollably, unable to hold in the great tide of emotion. “ now, you are an
orphan and no one would care and love you anymore,” I blurted with quivering
voice. Swiftly, I was put under my aunt’s custody. At first, I thought it would
be splendid for me. However, I realised I was just building castle in the air
as it was actually the beginning of sufferings. The real nightmare was
embarking on. In fact, I only experienced a period of euphoria.
Indeed,
my aunt and her family did not like me. They treated me badly as a servant.
Everyday, I was ordered to do many house
chores such as chopping firewood
and washing clothing. Even though I felt exhausted and was eager to tell
everybody about my aunt’s tyrannies, but I did not do that because I knew if we
lodged under another person’s roof, we must do something to requisite others.
The most disgusting was my cousins who liked to jeer and mock at me whenever
they saw me. “pity girl” was the name they chanted every time I walked by. I
told myself that I must bear for it.
I
could still bear in mind how injustice it was when my aunt chided me for
stealing her money without evidence. At that time, I definitely discovered my
cousin, Joseph who sneaking into my aunt’s room and took few notes from her
purse. I rubbed my eyes in disbelief. Although I was shocked at what I saw, I
chose to turn a blind eye and decided
not to disclose the event. What happened next was beyond my imagination.
“mum,
I saw that girl stole your money just now,” yelled Joseph recklessly and looked at me with wry smile. Without saying a word, my aunt’s face turned to the
colour of molten lava and her eyes stared at me like a wild cat. She took out a
rattan stick and prodded on my back relentlessly. I mustered all my courage to
explain but my explanation fall on deaf ears and proved futile.
“Now,
pack your belongings and leave my house, ungrateful girl, get out of here as
soon as possible,” shouted my aunt. Those hefty and sarcastic words were like
another slap on my face and bruised my feeling.
I
was homeless, helpless and miserable. I even had a desire to end my life.
However, I was not willing to obey the fate like this. I knelt down and prayed
sincerely to God. With the help of my church members, the good Samaritans, I was sent to an orphanage. Since then, I
decided to live my life to the fullest. I stopped building castle in the class.
I pulled up my socks and slogged in studying. With the moral support and love
from my friends, I beat all hardship and obstacles. Finally I succeeded and
passed my SPM with flying colours. I received scholarship to pursue my tertiary
education in university and graduated as a lawyer. My efforts had come to
fruition.
I
inadvertently encountered my cousin in newspaper that he was in jail for armed
robbery and was tricked by his friends. I helped him without hesitation. As a
result, he was freed. My aunt and cousin were guilt-ridden and asked for my
forgiveness. I decided to patch things up again.
Today,
I am celebrating freedom. Free from the hatred and anger of the past. Just
believe it. It is depend on ourselves to decide our destiny!
By: Ta Sze Sze
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